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  Grant doesn’t know anything.

  A wealthy, pampered, blue-blooded man like him can’t possibly know about all the pain and suffering I’ve been through, about all the discrimination, alienation, or the bouts of depression. I’m looking at the mirror now but he can’t possibly know all the times I’ve loathed doing so, hating what I see or the times I couldn’t even recognize my own reflection. He can’t possibly know how many tears these eyes looking back at me have shed or those they didn’t, couldn’t.

  Grant can’t possibly know or understand.

  I pull off my scrunchie, shaking my head to spread my hair over my shoulders. Then I leave the dresser to change my clothes before throwing myself on top of the king-sized bed, sighing as I stare at the pale blue ceiling.

  Maybe it’s the way the shade of the ceiling resembles the summer sky, or maybe it’s the softness of the bed beneath me that feels like a cloud, but for some reason, my anger ebbs away. My heart and my breathing slow down.

  As my mind clears, a realization sinks in – I just raised my voice at my boss. And in public, no less.

  “Shit.” I sit up, placing my hands on the top of my head.

  Sure, he hurt my feelings, but he’s still my boss. I should have been more civil. I should have kept my mouth shut. What if he decides to fire me?

  “Ugh.” I lie back down, grabbing a pillow and placing it over my face.

  What is wrong with me? First, that voyeurism and the spilled coffee this morning and now, the spat. None of this ever happened with Mr. Landers. What is it about Grant Herbert that drives me out of character?

  It’s mostly his fault. Still, I wasn’t entirely on my best behavior. I let my emotions get the better of me and forgot my position. Plus, maybe I was a little too hard on him. After all, he was just trying to impress me. And as for him telling me to accept who I am, it may be unsolicited advice... but it isn’t wrong. I’ve known it for years. I just never had anyone tell it to my face or summoned the courage to do it.

  Taking a deep breath, I place the pillow behind my head then turn to my side, pulling the blanket up to my shoulders.

  I’ll apologize first thing in the morning.

  ***

  “I’m sorry,” Grant says at the same time I do, his hands clasped on his desk.

  Standing in front of him with my tablet in one arm, I blink.

  He’s apologizing? He’s not mad? I thought for sure he was either going to fire me or pretend that nothing happened, like he did with yesterday’s morning “incident.”

  “I had no right to do what I did,” he adds solemnly.

  Isn’t that my line? Well, one of my lines. I had a whole speech prepared.

  “It’s all right,” I tell him as I hug my tablet to my chest, improvising now. “I’m the one who acted out of turn. I shouldn’t have raised my voice. You’re still my boss, after all.”

  “You can’t be calm all the time, Abby. In fact, I’d prefer it if you weren’t.”

  Grant turns to his computer, and I just stand there.

  Now, what? Have I been dismissed? Should I go?

  “Oh, by the way, I got rid of that file.” He places his hand over the mouse.

  Another surprise. “You did?”

  “It didn’t tell me the important stuff.”

  “Important stuff?” I ask curiously, tapping a finger on my arm.

  “What you like and what you don’t like,” he answers.

  My eyebrows go up. That’s what’s important?

  “Well, if you want to know something about me, all you have to do is ask,” I say without thinking.

  This time, Grant is the one who looks surprised, his blue eyes wide as he sits back in his chair. “I can?”

  I nod. “Well, you’re the boss.”

  “I have to admit I do still want to know you better.” He touches his chin. “Tell me something you don’t like. Aside from nosy bosses, Filipino restaurants, and dirt, that is.”

  I grin sheepishly as I look at my shoes. “I guess I don’t like men with mustaches.”

  Grant runs his finger over the skin above his lips. “It’s a good thing I don’t have one, then.”

  “And I don’t like colds.”

  He shrugs. “Who doesn’t?”

  “Or horror movies.”

  He leans forward. “So, is there something you do like?”

  I take a seat. “Well, there’s one thing I really do like. Are you sure you didn’t have it in your file?”

  He shakes his head.

  “Musicals,” I tell him. “I especially like the ones on Broadway.”

  “Really?” Grant taps his fingers on the desk. “Then let’s go catch one this Friday. I’ll let you pick the show.”

  I set the tablet down on my lap. “You’re serious?”

  I’ve never watched a play with anyone before. Then again, I’ve never met a man who wanted to go with me. Usually, they’d rather watch a Knicks or Yankees game. One of the men I went out with even said that theater was for gays and I’m pretty sure Grant isn’t gay.

  “Of course,” he answers, standing up and going around his desk. “I used to watch at West End with my mother. And like I said…” He places his hand on the back of my chair. “I still want to get to know you better.”

  As our eyes meet, I see a flicker of heat in his eyes, the same one I saw before, and a delicious shiver goes up my spine. Like before, I dismiss it, though, reminding myself that he’s just doing this so we can get along better at work.

  Still, no man has ever been this nice to me before. Not even Mr. Landers.

  I get up, smiling. “All right. I’ll get the tickets.”

  He returns the smile with his own, making my heart skip a beat. “I’m counting on you.”

  ***

  Truth be told, I’ve already watched all the musicals on Broadway. I can never get enough of them, though, and so I choose one of my favorites – Miss Saigon. As usual, I end up in tears as the curtain falls so I have to go to the restroom afterward to blow my nose and fix my makeup. When I’m done, I find Grant waiting for me at the lobby, staring intently at a poster.

  I pause, staring at him in turn.

  Damn, he’s hot.

  Tonight, he’s wearing khakis and a knitted vest over a pale blue dress shirt, all of which look expensive and fit him to a tee, putting my striped slacks and pink blouse to shame. The outfit shows off his perfect figure, too, the short sleeves wrapping around his toned upper arms and the pants just tight enough to outline the curve of his firm, round butt. I wonder how his cheeks would feel against my palms.

  Wait. What? First, I was looking at his crotch. Now, I’m checking out his butt and even fantasizing about touching it? What the hell is wrong with me?

  “Hey.” I smile as I walk up to him. “Sorry about that. Miss Saigon always makes me cry. Then again, so do Phantom and Les Mis and Rent and A Chorus Line and…”

  Grant chuckles. “I think I get the picture.”

  “Yeah. Broadway shows are all tearjerkers.”

  “Yet you love them.”

  I shrug. “Maybe I’m a masochist?”

  His eyes narrow, turning an even darker shade of blue. Out of nowhere, an image pops into my mind – one of me on the floor, Grant pinning my wrists above my head with one hand and the other between my legs, stroking, exploring…

  I push the image aside as I look away, sucking in a deep breath as I suppress the shiver threatening to ascend my spine.

  Breathe, Abby. Just breathe.

  “Or maybe I’m just a woman.” No, that doesn’t sound right. “Or I’m just human, you know, with emotions and all. Not that I’m saying you’re not a human, just…”

  I stop, realizing I’m rambling.

  Once again, he’s rattled me.

  “Are you hungry?” I ask quickly, hoping to dissipate the tension in the atmosphere.

  “Actually, I was hoping for another chance at dinner,” Grant admits. “Tell me. Do you happen to like risotto?”

/>   ***

  “This risotto is superb,” I say as I take another spoonful of the creamy mixture of rice, seafood, and spices. “The best I’ve tried so far.”

  “Same here.” Grant digs into his own beef and mushroom dish. “I’ve been to Italy but nothing beats this restaurant’s risotto.”

  “And the side dishes aren’t bad, either.” I take a bite out of the fried eggplant. “Mmm.”

  He takes a sip of wine. “Glad you like them.”

  “You know what?” I set down my fork and dab the corner of my mouth with the napkin. “We should just get the chef here to work for you.”

  Grant’s eyes widen slightly. “I didn’t know you were a headhunter, too.”

  “Well, I did help Mr. Landers find his new VP before I left.”

  “What did he tell you exactly?” He sets down his glass. “I mean about your new job.”

  “He said you needed a capable personal assistant more than he does.” I pick up my spoon. “He said he owed you a favor.”

  “Which one?” He continues eating.

  I chuckle. “That many favors, huh?”

  “So, you left just because he told you to?”

  I shrug as I eat another spoonful. “I guess I owe him a favor, too. Besides, he wouldn’t ask me to do anything that he knew wasn’t good for me. He never gets me into any trouble he can’t get me out of.”

  Grant grabs his glass again. “You and Nathan sure seem close.”

  “Well, I wouldn’t say…” I stop as I notice the change in his expression, his forehead creased and his gaze distant as he drinks the wine.

  Why does he suddenly look annoyed? I thought he liked this restaurant. Is it someone who just walked in? I subtly look around as I get my own glass. It doesn’t seem as if anyone just arrived; everyone is busy eating or chattering at their tables. I don’t recognize anyone, either.

  Is it something I said?

  Something I said.

  Wait. Don’t tell me Grant is… jealous of Mr. Landers? But he has no reason to be. Mr. Landers was never interested in me – on a sexual level – and Grant can’t be.

  Is he?

  Impossible. I’ve already established that fact. Maybe it’s just something he remembered.

  “On second thought, I don’t think we should hire the chef here.” I take a sip of the wine. “I mean, just think of all the people who would miss out on life not being able to taste the perfect risotto.”

  “You’re right.” Grant puts his glass down. “Anyway, I’m sure you’ll be able to hire someone good.”

  I set my own glass down and wipe my lips. “Actually, the agency already sent me the CVs of their recommended candidates and there’s one I’m considering.”

  I take my tablet out of my purse and show Grant the candidate’s CV.

  “Her name is Marjorie. She doesn’t have any formal culinary education but she has done well at the restaurants and homes she’s worked in. I called some of them and they describe her as a hard worker and a quick learner. They also said she likes to keep to herself but that’s fine since she’ll just be staying in the kitchen.”

  “Likes to keep to herself, huh?” Grant hands me back the tablet. “Sounds like you’ve found yourself a kindred soul.”

  I’m not sure if that’s a compliment, so I say nothing as I put the tablet back in my purse.

  Grant sits back. “She’s single, too.”

  I blink, surprised that he noticed. Wait. He isn’t interested in her, is he?

  “But she has a kid,” I inform him.

  “Not a problem.”

  He doesn’t mind if a woman has a kid?

  “As long as having a kid doesn’t interfere with her job.”

  Oh. Of course, that’s what he means. I suddenly feel like slapping my forehead in dismay. What was I thinking?

  “I don’t think it will,” I tell him as I continue eating. “She doesn’t bring her son with her to work.”

  Grant continues eating as well. “So, who’s watching him? How old is he?”

  “His name is Jim and he’s seven. If I remember correctly, he’s with an aunt and an uncle. I can ask for more details tomorrow.”

  “That’s fine. I was just curious.”

  I can tell it’s not curiosity, though. Concern? I wonder if it has something to do with the fact that his mother was also a single mom. I wonder what his childhood was like.

  “Your grandparents helped raise you, didn’t they?”

  He nods. “What about you? Your mother was a single mom, too, right?”

  “My relatives in the Philippines helped,” I tell him. “They didn’t do it out of the goodness of their hearts, though.”

  Grant gives me a puzzled look. “What do you mean?”

  “If they did, they wouldn’t have badgered my mother to send them money once she was already here in the US. She did at first but then she stopped, and they started fighting over the phone. Then the phone calls stopped altogether. When my mother…” I swallow. “…died, none of them came to her funeral.”

  Grant frowns.

  Oh, shit. Did I just tell Grant all that? I never meant to give him a sob story, especially not one that I haven’t told a lot of people, including Mr. Landers. Is there something in this risotto or is it the wine? Or maybe it’s still the Broadway effect?

  “Sorry,” I tell him. “I guess now, you think my life is good enough to be a show on Broadway.”

  Grant still says nothing.

  Okay.

  “Anyway, I think Marjorie will make a great personal chef,” I say, steering the conversation back to its original course. “Though, of course, you have the final say. You’re the boss, after all.”

  “If you think she’ll be great, then I trust your judgment,” Grant finally says.

  “All right.”

  ***

  The rest of the evening goes smoothly. Thankfully, I manage to stop bringing up any more tragic experiences, but I think the damage has been done. Grant is more reserved.

  I wonder what he’s thinking. Does he feel sorry for me, maybe? The last thing I want from him is pity.

  Even the ride home is fairly silent. Then again, we’re both tired. Plus, the alcohol is starting to get to me. I know it’s only two glasses of wine, but I’ve never been good with alcohol. I can barely keep my eyes open as it is.

  I manage to stay awake until we get to the mansion, though, and as much as I want to hurry to my room and bury myself under the covers, I stop at the top of the stairs, turning to Grant.

  “Thank you,” I tell him. “It’s been an amazing evening.”

  Grant smiles. “I’m glad you enjoyed it.”

  I take a deep breath. “And I’m sorry I said too much. Please forget about—”

  “You don’t have to apologize, Abby.” Grant takes my hand, surprising me.

  My words turn into a lump in my throat. My heart skips a beat then begins to pound wildly as he places his other hand on my cheek tenderly.

  What’s going on?

  “I’m not going to let anyone else hurt you,” he says, his blue eyes gazing into mine.

  For a moment, he just holds my gaze, those midnight blue orbs that are currently glistening with warmth drawing me in, drowning me even before his words sink in. As they disappear between closed eyelids, his lips descend on mine.

  My heart stops, my body frozen in place. I’m not the least bit cold, though. The heat from his lips flows throughout my body, swirling in my breasts and between my legs.

  Shit. He’s only kissing me. He’s not even using his tongue. And yet, he might as well be touching me, licking me all over. The waves of desire washing over me from his body are so strong that I have no choice but to respond and surrender.

  Just when I’m about to kiss him back, though, Grant pulls away.

  “Good night,” he whispers in my ear then turns on his heel.

  As he walks away, I grab the edge of the nearest desk, trying to keep myself from falling as I wait for my knees to s
top shaking. At the same time, I place my hand over my chest, waiting for my heart to slow down as I force air back into my lungs.

  When I can finally walk and breathe, I move slowly toward my room. My mind is still in a whirl, though, as my hand moves up to my lips.

  My boss just kissed me?

  Chapter 4

  Patience… and Its Limits

  Grant

  I shouldn’t have kissed Abby, I scold myself as I step into the shower, closing my eyes as the cool water trickles down my skin.

  I couldn’t help it. Tonight, I got to see different sides of her. As I sat beside her in the theater, I watched in silence and fascination as her expression changed from the excitement of a child to the awe of a star-struck fan to the crippling fear of someone who had seen the show too many times and dreaded its ending each time. Finally, to the grief of a woman who still believed in love and happy endings. It was a treat, even more so than the show. It’s a miracle I didn’t kiss her then and there.

  Then during dinner, I got a glimpse of who she was and of all the pain she had been through, all the pain she’s still carrying with her, hidden beneath that tough exterior. It awoke the knight in shining armor in me.

  I’m not going to let anyone else hurt you.

  What’s up with that line? Well, at least, I said ‘anyone else’ because I can’t guarantee I won’t end up hurting her. In fact, I’m pretty sure I will.

  All the more reason for me not to have kissed her.

  That’s what half my brain is saying. The other half is saying I should have done more, that I should have taken her to my room and had sex with her. If I had, I wouldn’t be having this cold shower right now to get rid of my erection. And I know she wouldn’t have protested. Heck, she was wet and willing.

  But Abby isn’t ready. She might be willing but she doesn’t want me.

  And I need her to want me.

  I take a deep breath. Patience.

  I might have slipped but no more. I’ll pretend the kiss never happened. I’ll step back. This way, Abby will have to take the first step if she wants me.

  When she wants me.